Last Days of 2013

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year soon!

最後一夜

最後一夜 不想睡

終於一次旅行 對得住自己良心

這次很多時間都用了來陪家人

拖著婆婆的手上街

很有小時候的感覺

每一次想起 心痛不已

每次離別 每絲牽掛

千種感覺 湧在心頭

真的多願留在婆婆身邊

做孩子永遠都是自私的一群

每一年的心願

希望家裡每一個人身體健康

真的要身體健康 記得身體健康

下次見.. T_T

冷雨

今天下雨 襯一下這悲傷的一天

說不送不送 最後還是去了機場

我倆拖到最後他才入閘口

雖然只是一個星期

雖然我口口聲聲說分開一下也好

雖然我表面上看起來很雀躍

而別人看起來覺得根本不算什麼

但原來這暫別最終還是會有分開的不捨

這星期應該會很矛盾吧

一心想看婆婆多一點

一心想假期永遠不要完

一心想逗留久一點吃多一點

但一心想回到那舒服的家

一心想回到馮生溫暖的懷抱

天氣冷了 想念踏著馮生暖暖的大腿取暖

希望這個星期過快一點又慢一點吧～

密密排

The remaining schedule:

明天：食豚王，帶表妹去睇戲，夜晚同舅父食大排檔

後天：同麻麻飲茶，下午同華仔BBQ

星期一：送馮生去搭車，下午找姨媽食lunch，夜晚同Josie食飯

星期二：夜晚同肥狗+Ada食飯再飲嘢

星期三：婆婆日，陪婆婆去探另外一個婆婆

星期四：夜晚同盧生食飯

星期五：下午約Angie行街買禮物

星期六：夜晚同婆婆做冬

星期日：夜晚同麻麻做冬

星期一：下午飛！

匆匆來匆匆去..

請約會我吧～

Dinner fully booked.

Lunch, tea and chill drink welcome!

Meet You There

今天在略略的整理行李

因為馮生星期一就要先回去了

原來哦 我雖然常常掛在嘴邊說

分開一陣子勝過婚姻

但此刻才知道原來我也會不捨的呀

很想我吃好吃的玩好玩的

他都可以與我分享

所以我決定了 星期一不送他飛機

機場讓我好傷感的說

每一次我都哭慘死

還記得上一次的離別嗎 苦成淚人

好一句「三年呀，沒那麼容易的」

還記得你抱著我的感覺嗎

分享過的溫暖 經歷過的 擁有過的

你有沒有變呀 還是那麼孩子氣吧

真的很不喜歡機場這地方

讓好多人都永遠分開噢

睡覺前我已經逼馮生發誓不可以就這樣忘記我

...我真的好無聊好喜歡逼別人發誓 hahaha

閒話家常

再會

遇見

一個地方沒有愛，根本沒有意思

你為什麼總是讓我那麼忐忑不安

今天係星期幾

每次放假都永遠唔知道星期幾

你有冇咁既經歷？

好喜歡呢種忘我既態度

但又好擔心未能籌謀既事情

好矛盾 究竟今日是第幾日假..

今天 原定計劃

只係比預期早起咗身

六點落咗街買奶茶買早餐買雜誌

好有小時候落街幫婆婆買報紙既記憶

之後出咗中環食九記

好好味 我當然係食上湯牛腩伊麵啦

之後帶婆婆周圍行下

同佢去買大戲飛 然後佢就搭車返屋企

而我同馮生就係中環蕩漾咗成個下午

係好多條橋之間穿梭

Landmark, IFC, 總去埋Starbucks六十年代主題店

玩咗成日 夜晚搭丁丁去灣仔同朋友食飯

榮興都幾好食 不過太嘈

我差不多全程要讀唇

所以我地之後去咗附近一間pub再傾計

仲有兩日就去台灣啦

自從流星花園之後我已經好想去

而家終於都去 好感觸

好似實現咗人生其中一個願望咁

唔知點解我地好鍾意俾人問路

我同馮生都覺得好奇怪

乜我地個樣似識路咩..

腳跛既頭兩日

12月真係返香港最好時候

呢兩日我一粒暮珠都冇暮過

輕輕鬆鬆仲可以著外套帶頸巾 超舒服

what we did on the first two days...

第一日下午落機

放低行李係婆婆家

氣都未抖順就出去銅鑼灣同馮家吃飯

食完飯時差到

馮生同我都話誓死唔返屋企

銅鑼灣夜遊 買咗Ｊ想要個隻mask

買咗牙刷之類就搭車返沙田

搭巴士途中我地已經好放心訓著咗

因為知道係總站落車..

今日一早起身 同婆婆去飲茶

而家係香港生活真係要好高EQ

D樓面阿姐個個都炆薑咁

大佬呀 朝早8點就用我既default mode

Ok 佢地贏咗

我唯有係旁邊叫馮生算啦算啦

同婆婆飲完茶

我地就出咗去買電話卡 去銀行之類

搞咗一大輪 決定閒日出旺角幫其他人買嘢

等我趁馮生仲係道又咩住個背郎

買曬要幫人買既嘢

本來再出中環但因為我著錯鞋所以都係掉頭返沙田

返到沙田馮生買曬所有恤衫西褲

我買咗幾本書 買咗部相機

已經累到不得了
再同婆婆買送

返屋企食婆婆煮既愛心晚餐

我已經宣告癱瘓 馮生已經訓咗

聽日...

同婆婆食早晨 去銀行

跟住我地就諗住出中環食我地最最最鍾意食既九記牛腩 行下中環

應該會做指定動作 去睇戲！

聽日決定悠閒地行 唔要再跟香港人既步伐

夜晚約咗我地大學D朋友去灣仔食飯

時日行程就係咁

相後補 再update啦 拜拜

感恩

距離返香港日子只剩下5日

由五十餘日倒數下來 現在只剩5天

每一次都是這樣 時間轉眼即逝

過往的五十日你做了什麼？

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Weekend :: Eason & Packing

Last weekend before going away! Only 6 days left...

People You Meet...

Happy Tuesday! It's Garbage Day!

T-13 :: Prior Trip Prepping

Happy Sunday everyone!

Mr. Happy Pill

 There are just people in your life that will always be your happy pill forever, and ever.

給十一年前的我，

真的謝謝你，

遇上這麼好的他，

讓我們都一世深刻..

:)

挨麥記既女人

Coat :: Zipia (old) (love this style here)

Dress :: J.Crew (old) (also loving this style here)

Legging :: Aritzia - Talula

Shoes :: J.Crew - Martina

Bag :: Michael Kors - Selma

Weekend :: MJ & Dessert

Hope you are having a wonderful weekend!

Eternity is...

今日本來放工約咗朋友食飯

但係我地臨時改約

馮生話返屋企有公司嘢做

咁難得可以賣甩佢 我梗係要出吓街啦

因為Holt Renfrew有個請柬

所以我就決定向Yorkdale進發

Halloween 2013 :: Pumpkin Carving

Happy Tuesday everyone!

T-37Days :: HKG & TPE

仲有37日馮生同我又去旅行啦

香港台灣我們來也！

已經差唔多plan好曬所有嘢

過去呢三個禮拜

俾一位auntie日日whatsapp轟炸我

朝朝晚晚挑戰我既食慾

不過都好 uncle auntie話留返佢地Ｄ悠遊卡地圖之類既嘢俾我

等我玩得有經驗Ｄ

uncle仲要我去參加旅行團唔好自由行

事源係因為我講笑同佢地講我會帶住一個聾啞人士同一個傷殘人士去

所以佢地擔心我有危險

馮生=唔識聽唔識講國語=聾啞

婆婆=老骨頭唔行得太耐=傷殘

我地冇驚過 一向都好有默契

一定會玩得好開心

馮生，婆婆同我都超級興奮

我地誓要食曬成個台灣

xoxo

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此時此刻

這世界上得來的感情

大部份都是錯覺

除了親情以外

要找到幾個陪伴到最後的摯友 或那個萬中無一的Mr. Right

..真的談何容易

現在的我們是注定或碰巧

不到最後卻沒人知

此時此刻

但願你我珍愛彼此

xoxo

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Emotional Thanksgiving Edition :: 真誠 & 感動

又再一次被真誠感動哭得一塌糊塗

很喜歡這樣的自己

對音韻歌詞的敏感

透過這樣的方式

來肯定自己對「愛」還是很相信的

我很相信這世界還很有情

親情，友情，愛情

所以有時候某身邊的朋友跟我說

他們不相信父母對自己有無私的愛

或他們已不再相信婚姻

或友誼之間總埋藏著懷疑

我會心裡隱隱作痛

為什麼他們對情會如此絕望

會放棄愛 只享受物質帶來的暫時安慰

我很想帶出一點點的正能量

想告訴那人 在你每一天的曲折中

總會有一點事情為你帶來微笑

而在那個瞬間當中 已經有著愛

請別放棄愛 別放棄感情

別放棄辛辛苦苦遇到的緣份

別放棄當最真誠的自己

儘管是不完美的

但只有當最真誠的自己那時

你才會看到這世上最簡單的愛

從前你倆為甚麼執手起誓

難捱的關口請你記住原委　努力保衛

xoxo

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Happy Thanksgiving :: Autumn Picnic & Trail Walk

Hi everyone! Hope you are having a great long weekend so far!

不要說話

Beautiful Flowers from Him

Give until it hurts. And give even more.

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I have been feeling quite emotional lately due to the lack of quality sleep. I have been waking up from dreams every single night of the past two weeks consecutively, though I can fall back into sleep after. I dreamed of random people, things, events, places; it could be anything! I wake up the next morning feeling even more tired than I was before sleep.

And lastly, I just want to say I really love you.

Thank you.

xoxo

Chilly Weather :: A Bowl of Udon

I finally have given a chance to Bushi Udon last weekend and what a disappointment. I don't even want to bother talking about it, so here are a few appealing photos but failure in taste. 

Autumn Colors :: Burgundy Outfits & Grilled Cheese Sandwich

First day of Autumn.

Friday Date :: Bestfriends & Dessert

Happy Monday Everyone!

中秋節 2013

(最愛食邊叉)

So one day...

沒答案的第六感

昨晚發了一個很危險的夢

睡在馮生旁邊本是安全到極點的

夢醒了之後發覺自己有點在抖的感覺

其實這幾年來也有第兩、三次吧

每次發夢見到「他」總是覺得有一種力量在告訴我
他不開心了 壓力大了 事事不順了

好像總有些東西在提點我有人需要關懷了 需要疼惜了

有點像人家說雙胞胎龍鳳胎的心靈感應一樣

依然 我還是希望他選擇的路是好的

希望我的夢是錯的

半夜睡不著幹麼好呢...

我竟然選擇了做一點讓自己更睡不著的東西

翻開很久以前的emails

太久以前了差點找不到以為被刪掉

一封一封的讀下去

每一封仔細看得很投入

當時他也應該都寫得很投入吧

幾十封這樣的email書信來往

看完之後很有歎息的感覺

一對好好的戀人 明明以前疼大家到極點

現在卻變成最討厭的陌路人

大家的承諾沒有守 說好的愛沒有延續

關係變質到一個地步我都無法接受

態度差了 當初相愛的理由也滅了

想著想著 又讓我記得生命真的很短很脆弱

現在擁有的應該加倍珍惜

說不定下一秒我有什麼意外就消失於這世上

想著又笑了

嗯 告訴自己明天早上起來

一定要第一時間好好的提醒馮生以後要加倍的愛惜我

經過了這麼多事情

其實 我還是那個喜歡吃麵在家裡看電視的傻女人

我沒有為誰去定下這個喜歡 也不會為誰去改變

xoxo

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Autumn Colors :: Origin & Phillip Lim Collaboration

Fall is here! It's my favorite season of the year :)

Smile because...

Smile because it's sweater season.

Smile because SB PSL is back.

Smile because HB loves me even if I am fat.

Smile because in 78 days we will be in HK & Taiwan.

Smile because it's PhillipLim x Target this weekend.

Smile because it is Friday.

Smile, just because you can.

Hope you will all have a great weekend and thank you so much for reading!

xoxo

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大結局

因為上個禮拜有點忙的關係

這星期才有時間看衝上雲宵大結局

最近心情還非常的藍

多愁善感的我這幾天淚線更加發達

為戲裡或戲外我都從頭到尾哭得一塌糊塗

開心的 傷心的 感動的 心酸的 不捨的

一點點的對白都說到我心坎裡

忙上班下班 生活 忙照顧體諒別人

發覺只有在看電視劇的時候

我才有藉口給自己失控地哭

為別人的對白哭

不用解釋流淚的理由

三年累積起來的眼淚

一下子就用乾

用了十年時間去等這電視劇

始終也會大結局

十年後會有續集嗎

十年後又會有誰從我們的生命中離開

想到這裡 淚盈滿眼眶...

應該需要一段比自己想象中還要長的時間去放空

去明白我們什麼都不是

只是一堆有感覺的塵埃

...

人生就是這樣，得失無常，福禍相依，凡是路過的，都算是風景。

一段情，某件事，能佔據記憶的，皆是幸福。

等走遠了再回望，你才發現，挫敗讓人堅強，别離令人珍惜，傷痛使人澄清。

再美好的東西，你也無法擁有太久，得到的都是短暫。

失去的曾經，亦不必太留念。

入土為安，只有從過去中站起，明天才會有希望。

/RIP/

It's been bugging me. How should I start. 

So a lot of things happened for these two, three weeks. Actually maybe not a lot of things, but things that happened within these couple weeks are all significant items. It's been a very, very depressing time. I know during this time, I have affected the ones that are around the emotional me. I am deeply sorry. I don't think I can ever get used to a situation like this. Very sadly to say, and we all know it from the beginning, it is part of a life cycle. This triggered my endless pondering for the past couple weeks...

"Every beginning has an end." 

Why do we spend all of our lives trying to make things perfect, work things out, compromise situations, when all in the end, it comes nothing but dust. We work hard, learn hard, love hard, and in the end, we get hurt really hard. It's like you build a perfect scenario, tell a perfect story, everyone is smiling - and then you close the book, and burn it, literally. There is not a word to describe the hatred I have for the crematorium.

This is an 'experience' that I should note down for myself. I need to note every part of this pain, remember all the crying faces, practice it, so it will be more 'normal' when it is my turn - because those days will come. One day, I will lose all of my loved ones. And by then, no matter how smart you were in school, how hard you've worked to make money, how much stress you have came through to maintain living life; there is nothing you can do to create that perfect picture where those people will leave never you. As soon as it happens, you will never be able to touch or feel them again, you will never be able to argue or talk to them again, and that is ever ever. There is absolutely nothing you can do except gazing upon some random shining stars.

What's the point of putting my money in investments to fight inflation, when you, yourself, will deflate in the end? My money is happy in its chequeing account.

Just 'whatever'. 

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Happy Birthday :: 幸福感

光陰似箭 日月如梭

不知不覺已經28歲了

不知道爸爸媽媽心情如何

應該是和我一樣的感觸吧

這年來發生了種種的好事

有時候真的不想睡覺

好怕只是美夢一場

不過最後也敵不過睡魔

生日那天竟然撐不過12點

馮生在旁不停的把我叫醒

但我還是偷偷的睡著..

最愛的外婆打電話來的笑聲

爸媽小弟們開心的一頓晚餐

BFF 12點準時出現送上禮物

這歲數還有人會調好鬧鐘發HBD信息給我

馮生每天都在我身邊團團轉

幾張讓我看到一陣哽咽一股鼻酸的生日卡

美滿 真的美滿

好眼淚

我都為你們流了

生活永遠是激動人心的

只有你擁有一顆感恩的心

和善於去體會所有的心靈

便會發現生活處處是風景

幸福其實是一種滿足感

Life is not always perfect, you just have to feel perfect.

Sometimes you just have to BYOS - bring your own sunshine!

Thank you so much for everything!

xoxo

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Happy Birthday :: Family Dinner & JACQ Baked Goods

My first birthday cake this year :) It is one that I have bought myself to have it with my family.

Happy Birthday :: Farmers' Market, Delicious Meals & Beach Movie

Brunch at Cafe Belong - Eggs B - Poached eggs & hollandaise on savoury biscuit, honey glazed ham. I can go back there and have it again and again! One order was perfect for two to share.

Happy Weekend :: Biking & Shopping

I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend! 

行.立.坐.臥.

行如風 立如鬆 坐如鐘 臥如弓

又一新開始

心情興奮得難以放鬆

呢兩年來太多好事發生

好怕有一日訓醒會好似以前咁乜都冇晒

日日提醒自己要帶住正面思想去做人

要好好珍惜每一件事 每一個人

心有依處

心不放逸

邁步直行

端正平穩

思惟經義

不忘正念

心無昏亂

調攝身心

xoxo

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Downtown :: Dark Horse & Terroni

Happy Wednesday everyone! 

Easy Breezy :: Magnum & Shopping

Thank you for the awesome weather during this relaxing weekend. HB and I were off early for summer hours on Friday and we headed downtown for the day. We were on a hunt of a pan-fried dumpling place that was as awkwardly as good as the one we had in Montreal (Mai Xiang Yuan), however the mission is destined to be continued.

Surprise :: One Man Show & Zakkushi

 Yesterday I came home to the cutest/funniest surprise. 

T - 2 Weeks

Another new beginning in two weeks!

I'm so thankful of all the opportunities I come across and I am beyond excited about this new position. While forming my career path, thank you for those who have supported emotionally and intellectually. My dear colleagues, you all have been brilliant people. Thank you for guiding me through this compacted one and a half year, many of you will be missed - until we cross roads again, take care and all the best.

Never give up, just keep walking.

xoxo

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Hot Summer :: New Opportunity & Fresh Sushi

I had my fingers and toes crossed for a week now pending the good news I've long waited for. The day is almost here, by Monday, I will know where my career is taking me. I'm already glad that I've even got this interview, and the feeling of pursuing something I actually like to do (and that I am good at), is priceless.

Kidult Day :: Science Centre & Finger-licking Burgers

So Honey Bun and I went to Ontario Science Centre this weekend for the Game On Exhibition. HB has been nagging for weeks about this and I've been pushing it until I ran out of excuses... I ended up having a bunch of fun in there! I was a hands-on exhibition experience. I played the one of the earliest arcade video games - Pong, to 1984 Tetris, to Daytona, to 1987 Street Fighter, to looking at all versions of Tamagotchi, to more up-to-date games like DanceDanceRevolution and Wii, etc. I heard a bunch of Daddies in there explaining to their children when they played those games, I thought those moments were very sweet.

Summer Wedding :: Congrats SamSa

Anyone else have "post long-weekend symdrome" with me?

Friday Date :: Restaurant Hopping!

My boyfriend is literally the best. We have been so busy these couple weeks for our friends’ wedding, HB had to catch up in studying, I had to find extra time for job searching, endless house chores and just so much activities and gatherings because summer is here. Finally we found time for a date on a Friday evening and I have never done this before but we went restaurant-hopping! Boy it was sweet, romantic, fun, spontaneous and just everything I could ever ask for after a busy week of work with HB.

Look Afar :: Trips & Errands

Living a good life starts by building some good habits. Right now, I am not at the best of it yet, but I am getting there. Regarding stress, just go softly and look afar. I wish I have the memory of an elephant to remember everything that happened within the last 3 weeks that I haven't blogged. Unfortunately, my brain capacity has been dedicated to work recently; it's an addiction. 

Under Construction :: Love & Relationships

最近我經常都在想

馮生真是一個很搞笑的人

我常常都跟朋友說他真的很多話很搞笑

但除非你跟他很熟很熟

否則也很難見到他的這一面

所以當我這樣跟別人說的時候

難怪人家都很難想像

這也好

這一面... 只有我看得到

每一對戀人的經歷都大同小異

你是什麼人就會遇見什麼人

你是什麼性格就會遇到什麼事情

什麼事也好

有時候需要的只不過是堅持堅持與堅持

每一次碰上的風波

就是感情得到磨練和細啄的機會

最後上天才會讓你得到應有的幸福

讓我們學會珍惜從努力得來的回報

感謝讓我遇見那麼趣怪的你

當急躁遇上慢熱 原來會發生這樣的幸福效果

xoxo

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Summer Outtings :: Toronto Zoo & Banh Mi Boys

Zoo!! We went to the zoo!! Well it was HB's idea, he wanted to go see the pandas. It was a lot of walking at the zoo, I survived by wearing the most comfortable pair of sandals that I've newly bought.

無眠

有時候晚上睡不著也是好的

讓自己有時間反覆思量白天沒時間想好的事情

白天只懂埋頭幹

有時候真的不知道地錯過了很多

晚上好 寧靜多了

除了馮生的大大呼吸聲 我什麼都聽不見

黑暗中不用紙筆墨 只需要清晰的腦袋

慢慢的想好拼好每一件事的來去龍脈

什麼該做的 什麼該扔掉的

無眠的晚上

帶來無限的思量重整總結

xoxo

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